March 21st, 2005

Re: coming out, friendships contact with tip members

Looking back, there were two periods of 'energy' to get through, when I left the training and in the period before I left.

When I actually left, many of my `friends' did not respond. Nothing. Nada. Silence. I was somehow no longer 'me' but transformed into one of 'them', no hard feelings of course, to each their own by all means, but no longer one of 'them'. Even though I knew very well the spiel of consorting with the fallen, I was unprepared emotionally. It was still a shock to land on the other side of that fence with a thump.

It was clear, and it hurt. I was somehow no longer 'me' but transformed into one of 'them', no hard feelings of course, to each their own by all means, but no longer one of 'them'. Even though I knew very well the spiel of consorting with the "fallen, I was unprepared emotionally. It was still a shock to land on the other side of that fence with a thump..Collapse )